The Lord has been talking to me a lot about delving deep into fellowship with Him in this season of my life – particularly in this spring semester of school at FMA. Last semester was a crazy one full of ups and downs, joy and pain, satisfaction and longing. After pressing through for months, breakthrough came less than two weeks before the semester ended. I was freed from self hatred, fear of man, fear of rejection, and many other things connected to those that had taken root in my heart and mind since I was a child. I felt like a new person and was filled with a joy that I had never experienced before. The Lord used John 15 to speak to me after that point, and I’ve been meditating on it on and off for the past two months or so.
He highlighted to me what Jesus said in verses 10-11:
“If you keep my commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love. These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in You and that your joy may be full.”
He began to speak to me about the freedom, joy, and satisfaction that can only be found abiding in His love, and how we can only abide in His love if we are obeying Him. My heart began to open up as I realized there’s an action-reaction thing going on here. And not only that, but the reaction is waaaaaay huge compared to the action! Seriously. All we have to do is follow His direction and perfect leadership and we get to abide in Him and His perfect love and experience fullness of joy!
It’s something so simple, yet my heart never really connected with it. God began to reveal to me how much I was trying to find joy and satisfaction in other places and kept coming up dry. I was striving and wearing myself out because I didn’t know the peace and satisfaction that comes in abiding in Him. He started drawing me nearer, calling me to spend increased time in worship and reading the word – both in the corporate place and the secret place. In the past couple weeks as I began to respond in obedience, making more time in my schedule for Him, I began to see and feel a shift in my life. I’ve felt a freedom that I’ve never felt before. I’ve experienced deep contentment, satisfaction, and peace in my heart and mind every day. And I’ve been happy! I’ve found a joy that I never imagined could feel this way. It’s a joy that is so deep and so alive. I don’t even know how to describe it. But it’s amazing, and Jesus is amazing!
I want to encourage you to make time for Him. Incline your ear, hear what He’s speaking to you, and follow where He leads. As you walk in obedience, you will abide in Him, and as you abide in Him, you will experience the depths of His perfect love and joy unspeakable.