The past two months or so there has been a lot going on in my life. Aside from the busyness of school, being the leader of an IHOPU ministry trip coming up in April, working at Trader Joe’s, and being on a GPR worship team, there have been deep things going on in my heart. It’s not something that I’ll go into details about here, but let’s just say that this is definitely
a season where the Lord is doing unexpected things at the most unexpected times. It’s scary and exciting, and it’s bringing up some fear, insecurities, and the like.
Being the verbal processor that I am, last night I spent a pretty decent chunk of time sharing what’s been going on with my incredible, godly, wise, fun mother (she’s really awesome). As I was sharing, I started remembering and talking about the faithfulness of the Lord in the past few years of my life when similar situations arose. I became overwhelmed by His goodness and perfect leadership in my life and began to cry. In that moment He took me back a few weeks ago to a GPR set I had the privilege of singing on that Laura Hackett and her team led. One of the first songs she did on that set was an “oldie but goodie,” one I’m sure we’re all acquainted with. It goes like this…
“Trust and obey, for there’s no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.”
As she began to sing this song, tears came to my eyes as the Lord kissed my heart with this simple yet profound truth. I’m reminded of John 15:9-11 where Jesus tell His disciples to abide in His love further explaining that if we keep His commandments, we will abide in it. Then the kicker comes:
“These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.” (vs. 11)
When we come to the place where we can trust Jesus fully, completely surrendering everything to Him, it makes obedience so much easier! And as we obey Him, we abide in His perfect love which fills us with unspeakable joy. Right now, He’s teaching me to trust and obey. Though it’s scary and it doesn’t always make sense, I’m realizing that this truth is just that – truth. It’s becoming real to me, and I hope and pray that your testimony is the same. Trust and obey.