Well, my friends, two days ago I kissed my teenage years goodbye and said hello to a new decade of my life! If you looked at the title of this post and thought “Twenty!”, give yourself a pat on the back because you got inside my head for a brief moment. :)
Anyway, this week has been… interesting. It’s spring break week for me, but it has been anything but a break! Between work, meetings, birthday activities, and unexpected surprises, I haven’t had a whole ton of time to just wind down and, well, break. In the midst of all the busyness, though, I’ve found brief moments to just sit down and reflect on the past twenty years of my life.
I know I’ve said this countless times before, but I am completely and utterly overwhelmed and undone by the goodness and faithfulness of the Lord in my life. Honestly, I don’t even have words to explain to you how I feel… heck, even to Him! All I can do is look back on this journey of life that He’s taken/taking me on, smile and say, “Thank You.” Through every failure and every accomplishment, through every disappointment and every satisfaction, through every moment of confusion and every moment of understanding, He’s been there leading me by the hand.
I’ve been meditating on Psalm 23 a lot lately, and one thing that’s been highlighted to me that I’ve never really thought about is verse 4 where it says that, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me…”So often I think that in times where I feel like I’m in the valley, I got there because He abandoned me and I lost my way. But, the truth of the matter is that when I’m surrendered to His leadership, sometimes that means He’s the one who leads me through that valley. Sometimes in order to get to those green pastures, still waters, and feasts that He prepares for us, He’s gotta lead us through the valley. There is seriously nothing more comforting than knowing that even in the darkest and most difficult seasons, He’s closer than I know, and He’s doing what’s necessary to bring me to that place of peace, safety, refreshing, and rejoicing.
After seeing the goodness of the Lord in my life over the past twenty years, I am ecstatically excited to see what lies ahead in the next. He’s always been faithful, and He won’t stop now. I am convinced that goodness and mercy truly will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Hallelujah.