It’s hard to believe this day is here. Three years ago when I moved to Kansas City to begin my studies at the Forerunner Music Academy, I didn’t imagine I’d be sitting in my car on this day trying to calm my emotions before stepping into my future as an IHOPU graduate. In twenty minutes the events surrounding my graduation from IHOPU will officially begin.
Three years have flown by, yet so much has happened in those three years that it could’ve easily been spread out over a decade without being a drag. As I reflect over the past few years of my life, I am flooded with some of the deepest emotions I’ve ever experienced. I am in awe of my God and what He has done in and through me in this past season.
Cliche as it may sound, I am literally a completely different person today than I was when I stopped foot onto the IHOPU campus for the first time three years ago. I was a broken, wounded, girl afraid to talk to anyone for fear of rejection, agreeing with lies of self condemnation and shame the enemy had spoken over me, just trying to fall more in love with Jesus but feeling helpless to do so. Today I am still broken and wounded, but not because I haven’t received healing from my tender, merciful Father. No. I am broken over my own human condition, realizing all the more just how in need of Him I am. I have truly come to know that without Him, I have nothing. Not only that, I have been wounded so deeply by Love Himself that there is no hope for recovery – and that is the most glorious reality!
After seeing what He’s done these past three years, I don’t even want to try to imagine what He’ll do in the next three. Whatever I can try to dream for myself will fall radically short of the glorious plan He’s going to unfold. As I turn the page and this chapter of my life comes to a close, there’s only one thing I have to say…
Let me love You more. Let my life be a pleasing fragrance, bringing glory and honor to the name of Jesus Christ at all times. You are worthy of all of me. I am Yours.